It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas..
And that’s always a weird time of year for me. I like Christmas, don’t get me wrong. But I think I’d like it a lot better if the whole “holiday season” was about a week long. Maybe two weeks. But six plus weeks of being beaten over the head with it? Bah humbug. By the time December 25th actually rolls around, I’m over it.
Then there's the whole present thing. I like giving people I love presents. But in the past, I have sometimes had a hard time accepting them. I’ve gotten better at it, but still, I have to remind myself from time to time that people give gifts because it honestly gives them pleasure to do so, and I don’t have to put pressure on myself to instantly reciprocate in some way, just because I think I need to keep some invisible set of scales neatly balanced. I know if I give someone something, it’s just because I think they’d like it and I enjoy the act of giving it to them and seeing them be happy about it. But that’s been something I’ve had to learn to trust in others.
All that said, I do have some very sweet and generous boys who have asked me for a Christmas gift list. So, okay, here goes.
Books are always good. Here's some stuff off my Amazon list I'd like to read over the holidays:
Marriage, a History: From Obedience to Intimacy, or How Love Conquered Marriage by Stephanie Coontz
The Girl in the Glass : A Novel, by Jeffrey Ford
The Virgin's Lover, by Philippa Gregory
A Breath of Snow and Ashes, by Diana Gabaldon
The Kinky Girl's Guide to Dating, by Luna Grey
Polyamory: Roadmaps for the Clueless & Hopeful, by Anthony D. Ravenscroft
I am also lusting after this jacket. This coat is pretty as well, although I've never worn such a long coat. But it looks warm, and I am a girl who's often wearing skimpy little outfits when it's cold outside. I'd have to have it in black, of course.
Then there's kinky stuff. It's great when people bring me naughty things, because my rule is: you bring it to me, you're asking me to use it on you. Heh.
I do seriously want this sling. And while I have one fucking machine, this one looks uber-cool.
I could play some wickedly fun games with this little device, too.
Geek stuff? Gee, Santa, I want a laptop. Do the elves makes those? I also want one of these, although I'm still researching brands and models.
Of course, I'm not sure exactly how good of a girl I've been this year, but we'll see what the guy in the red suit does for me. Hey, even if he puts switches in my stocking, I'm sure I can think of something fun to do with them.